what is this life,,,it makes us soo vulnerable and absolutely powerless in front of it..how can one work hard and do so many things...plan plan and plan and then carefully as if handling a glass statue execute the plan, only to have the destiny make its own plan and execute it in the diametrically opposite way??!...Its easy to say, take life as it comes, do your best god will see to the rest,,,but you know the magnitude of pain..of failure ..of anger..of frustration only when you do work so hard and it doesn materialize..what is this thats happening?? why are we soo helpless??

As i scream all these things to the nobody around me, i get a pin-drop,,actually a scary morbid silence as the reply. Certain things are just beyond us..it sounds so spineless to say things like this..but its true..the stark dirty truth...its just not in your hands.

But the beauty is, inspite of thrashed dreams, broken hearts, shattered lives, painful transition of alive days and moments to miserable memories...there is always a new life waiting.

Given a chance, many of us would love to wallow in the pity and misery and go into non-existence...but we dont, coz we dont have a choice in that too...we are forced to take the new life that is waiting round the corner,,just like a forceful dosage of medicine or an uninvited guest who has taken complete hostage over our current home..our current life.

And life evolves once again...from the fall season to bloom...taking us through...phases of initial frustrated denial..to slowly reluctant submission to miserable guilt trips for submitting ..to exasperated forceful acceptance of the changes to finally accepting the defeat -the new life-and the hope (which we swore to ourselves that we will never have after a certain incident)

Things like this..wash us out..baffle us...break us..torment us..scare us..but weirdly also shape us..

and thts why it is said -'life as we know it!'

ps: dedicated to YOU!

there was once a girl..chirpy ...flitting merrily around unaware of what or how her life will take a turn. She was happy with who she was or whatever she thought she was..It was then one day..she met a person .. a person who takes the same crash course as her. She dint kno why,,but she resisted getting to know this person..but she knew enough that there was something about that other person..that intrigued her . Considering her personality..she was able to dodge getting to know this other person. But destiny had a different plan, and in a span of one year..they were thrown back to the same classes. Feeling out of place..and torn between whom to be with...this girl chose the mysterious person over the other faces that seemed to lose form like a paint drop dissolving in water. There was an awkward moment,,,but that was the oly moment that was awkward between them ever since. Days flew...and she opened up more more..much more..that she realsied one day that...earlier before her encounter with this person...she just dint know who she was. She was viewed as a gift package..and she assumed that that was who she was. It dawned to her that no matter how beautiful the wrapper looked..it is meant to be unwrapped ..let the world and herself see who she really was. And so unfolded a life together..a life filled with laughter,,insecurities..endless talks..deepest secrets...obviously fights..withdrawing sprees...but at the end..it was a life together. They being poles apart..admired each other..loved each other ..and were always patient with each others tantrums( tho it was predominant only one way ;))..They became an integral part of each others lives. The girl was lost in her dreamworld..a world filled with this mysterious person and all those who was introduced to her by that source. With evry new additional person...their love for each other grew instead of dwindling. It was ironic how you think you cant love a person more..but u shock yourself the very next day. They adorned a dream together,,,a dream which they soo fervently hoped would work..and whether the dream worked or not...it sure brought them closer...they discussed wackiest of topics..did craziest of things,,,cried together almost over evrything and nothing...

And now..one of them..is moving forward..taking a huge leap into the real world..the real world which our dreamy girl totally can not relate to...After a years of being together in messier situations..its the first time..these two have to be in different phases different places with different situations 'together'. Though insecurity washes either of them in its own way...though doubts swallow them ...they know that..things change..dreams change..but they are still 'them'

ps: to mahima..for us :)