Wednesday, January 2, 2008


...as i was taking a stroll in my terrace...i happened to glance at the the vast sky yawing above me...tiny twinkly stars sprinkling here and there.with the ever beautiful moon adorning it...tears welled in my eyes...in spite of the beauty of nature..i was pushed to a point where insecurity took hostages...thoughts and memories started playing hide and seek in my mind..making me feel more and more vulnerable...words choking at my throat..felt like breaking the ever rigid shell of mine and voice my mind..in vain...all these were a new experience all together..i guess i am still a tyro..i just dint know how to handle myself...go tired of people telling me that i am difficult..it is almost impossible to handle me or understand..my longingness increased by ten folds...due to certain changes that took place some time back i felt as if i was pushed in a maze...where i had no clue as to where i was..where i am heading...thoughts like have i done a mistake by trusting everyone i knew...as the quote says.."think a million times before giving your heart to someone..coz not only do the have the right to love you..but also the power to break your heart.."...i felt a vacuum deep down inside me...dint know why or because of who...i felt miserable for one minute when i thought about people i trust and contemplating whether they are worth it..and the next minute guilty for feeling soo..as i felt the angst...as i cried to myself... i got a call...with shaky voice i attend my friends call...she says.."hey..are you ok?..i just felt u were'nt..."...there...all my insecurities ..sorrows...pain...vanish into the thin air..tears struggle their way down ma face...this time not because i feel left out or lonely...but partly because i am overwhelmed by the love in her voice and partly because i have been such a fool to have felt lonely when i have her around...true sometimes we feel as if people have taken advantage of us..but that never should make us see others with doubtful eyes...world is full of lovely people(,,,tho noone can be as lovely as my best frnd!!:P)...soo lets not waste our precious time lamenting and worrying....just love everyone with your heart and soul...happiness will crave to be with you!!!

5 comments:

the mirage said...
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the mirage said...

lovely one! :)
never feel lonely!

Jshree said...

Nice 1

mahimsm said...

:) :) :) :) :) :)
wondering why am all smiles?...someone i love very much once wrote a blog post saying that-"i was asked if i enjoy having you in my life-and i just smiled" as smile and silence hold more meaning than words...ill just be silent and smile to you then maybe youll know how much iam grateful to you,how much i love you and your silent smiles ,they actually make me feel like iam the best friend that i think you deserve!!!

Vignesh R said...

hmm..true..i agree !!